Aug 20 2008
Worker Blues (Pt. 2)
One of my first blogs was about problems I experienced on the job. You can view this link, http://justathought.today.com/2008/06/01/worker-blues/, to get the full outpouring of my emotions at the time. This blog is just a follow up to that incident. I am still working for the same company that does not appreciate my efforts. Initially I refused to quit because I knew that is what they wanted me to do. After some time had passed, I didn’t quit because jobs are a rare and precious thing AND I refused to give them the satisfaction of seeing me knuckle under. So now, here I am nearly nine months from the date that my employer attempted to remove my offending presence from their world. Some days, it feels like the fight is draining out of me. The workloads are still more than one person can bear, yet no one else that has dropped balls along the way have been reprimanded . . . .to my knowledge anyway.
I called the EEOC to get an update on my case and did not realize just how much this still upsets and bothers me until I found myself tearing up during the call. I just want this thing to end. Initially I thought a simple apology and admittance of wrongdoing would suffice and make everything better. But now I realize that there are no words that can make me fall in love with my company again. There are no words that will make me excited to come to work every day and give 200%. Once the love is gone, it really is gone . . .
According to the EEOC investigator, it could take a year or better before my case is resolved. I have to look at that hopefully, with the understanding that if my claim had no validity I would have received a “case closed” stamp months ago. I don’t think I can stick it out at my job and continue to work their while I wait for this thing to be resolved. I just don’t like it there anymore. What would you do if in my shoes?
