justathought

I had a major meltdown on Sunday.  I guess it was a long time coming.  I have been so stressed lately with concern about my niece and her lack of motivation towards her future.  I accidentally locked myself out of the house and had to wait for 2 hours before my boyfriend (I should really say ex-boyfriend here) showed up to let me in the house.  I was so pissed I immediately jumped down his throat with the accusations that had been lingering in my heart the past week.  I guess I learned that when your trust is broken once, it never fully mends.  So what can you do once you fully realize this besides call it quits right?

 After tearing him a new one, I walked out the door and my niece finally showed up ( a full 1.25 hours later than she said she could come) and I cursed her out.  That is something I have never done.  I had to catch myself mid-rant and take a deep breath.  I can only say that I am so done.  If I let them, these people will drive me to drink . . . .more than I already do . . . .can’t let that happen.